My life since the last post has been a whirlwind beyond compare to anything I have ever experienced in my life. I have been so surprised at how this new role as "mum" has consumed me. I used to judge mom's who couldn't keep their homes in order, who hardly got out of pj's before the afternoon hours, etc. The truth is, at Hudson's age , my life is everything but my own! I jokingly compare it to being held hostage in my own home by a very tiny little man who's only tactic is to cry and feed incessantly. I have somehow been blessed with a quiet morning with a sleeping infant and a clean house.. this is the first time this has happened since our little man has entered this world.
This new man in my life was born September 15th to a very tired mum and dad, weighing in at 7lbs 1oz, 19 inches long.. and suddenly consuming our world. I had a long and tough 58 hours of labor but it was all worth it once I got to hold that tiny little body in my arms. I can remember the very moment he was born.. I was terrified! I actually closed my eyes in disbelief and couldn't bring myself to open them until I heard his first wee cry. I couldn't believe that he had finally arrived- my pregnancy was over- I now had a SON- I'm a mom- I have a life that depends on my entirely-- it was overwhelming beyond description.
Suffice to say, this new role has totally consumed me. There is no better word.
Consume. To destroy or expend by use; use up.
I, of course, mean this in the best way- I am by no means complaining about this. I love this life! It has just been surprising how much has been not even remotely what I was expecting.
There are now 3 men in my life that demand total and complete consumption, dedication, essentially- a surrendering of all that I am unto them. My Lord, my husband and now, my son. It's a big of a tall order, but each one helps me to take care of the next... It's a pretty neat "hierarchy." Sounds strange I am sure- so I will explain. My Heavenly Father alone can give me the strength, wisdom, patience, provision, balance, grace and mercy to be a good wife and mom. (not to mention the fact that he GAVE me both of these men in my life.. such an incredible gift) My husband encourages me, strengthens me, loves me and works to provide the means to take care of our son. It's a pretty sweet deal. God is just so good.
Nic has taken up a second job bar-tending at the downtown Hilton here in KC. We both had expected to be met with adverse opinions about this, considering the fact that we are God-fearing Christians, not to mention worship leaders at our local church... But we have been pleasantly surprised that most have totally supported the change. In fact, they applaud it! The beautiful thing about it is that Nic has an opportunity every single time he walks into that bar to meet people where they are at. No judgement. No preconceived notions. He gets to minister the love of God in the most unlikely of places- and whats more- share his testimony. A testimony that stirs hearts to move. stirs hearts to love God. People tend to get very chatty with their bartender and quite frankly, they're extremely shocked to hear about a young married man, with a brand new son, who loves the Lord, and is always looking to Him for direction and guidance. It's a beautiful thing. I get to stay at home with Hudson, and Nic works hard and gets to share about our Father. I am just so very proud of my wonderful husband.
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