I say that because it was the very first due date they gave me. Then it got switched to the 8th. And then the 15th. And then back to the 8th. And then at my last ultrasound at 37 weeks they estimated the 4th. So I gave up and picked the 6th. Of course, at first I picked the 4th cause it was the closest. But he obviously didn't arrive that day... and if he doesn't come today then the 8th it is (and so on..)
My mom has been in town a tad over a week now and I am beginning to feel guilty. In my mind she's here to get to see the baby and spend time with him. And I just hate that her time here is drawing to an end (okay-- there's still 2 weeks left..) and she is yet to get to meet her grandson... But I seem to forget that I am her baby and she's really here to spend time with me as a prep for the arrival of my baby. What a fun lil' realization. Sweet. Precious.
I know I need to be more appreciative of this time we have together. After all, this is likely to be some of the last moments we will get to spend babyless- at least for a while, I suppose. I dunno. I truly am unsure of what to expect from this whole motherhood thing. I am sure it will all take me by surprise, no matter how confident I am feeling in this moment.
I took a bit of a step of faith and had a root canal scheduled for today (ahem, my due date-- keep up now) and I must say, I am very glad I am getting this little portion of my to-do list taken care of. Once Hudson is here I really don't think I will be wanting to spend much time away from him, much less taking care of monotonous tasks like dental appointments. I tell you what, you can floss, brush, and rinse all you want but if your genes aren't truly spectacular there is NOTHING you can do to keep yourself from getting cavities and needing things like root canals. It's so very frustrating. I am what could be considered a dental hygiene freak and still, my teeth chose to betray me. Every time I go in for a cleaning something else needs to be done.. or in this case an old filling actually fell out and cause my tooth to become infected. So so very sad. And also, extremely painful. Happy, happy, joy, joy- right? :)
The flood of "Is baby here, yet?" texts and messages have began and I would be lying if I said I get a little sad, a little heartsick even, every time I have to respond-- "Not yet! Still patiently waiting.." What's worse are seeing other mommies with similar due dates to mine already having had their babies, and getting to spend time with them and hold them.. I just want it to be my turn already! I don't feel like that is too much to ask.. It's been a long 40 weeks and I am just ready. There are no other words to express.
In other news, my wonderful hubby is still on the job hunt for some added income to support our family. I don't think we quite realized what the initial shock of losing my income would feel like.. But I can definitely say it isn't a comfortable one. Ultimately, we rely on the Lord for our provision, we know that HE is our source and will supply all of our needs. And from the start He has never left us high and dry- we have never gone hungry- and have only been late on rent once. He's got a pretty great track record of keeping our lil' family in tact. If you think of it, do keep us in your prayers.
I believe that is all for now.. Until next time :)
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